Deprivation → abundance isn’t wrong, it’s a cycle found everywhere there is nature. In the human experience, starting before our birth, there are often disruptions in this cycle nature implements to protect itself.

Our bodies remember these disruptions and they can become underlying imprints. Our Spirits, even as we uplift them, may run on top of imprints of disrpuption we can carry forward unknowingly amplify through what looks like an irregular or disordered relationship with the basic building block of life: food.

In my recent practice with eating, I noticed a lot of emotion around my first meal. While breakfast is my favorite, it also seemed to bring the most memory of something disrupted. Something “lost.”

Breakfast, or breaking fast is when we choose to keep moving toward life, to move the cycle from deprivation, when the body clears out and resets, to abundance again, literally signaling the message,

“Fill me with Life.”

This can be emotional where life was denied, cut off, or minimized in us and in our lineage, for we are the carriers Now of our lineage in our cells.

By eating, we are the carriers of the cycle:

Deprivation → abundance.

For many of us, this cycle isn’t only personal habit—it carries ancestral memory about provision: when nourishment was disrupted, the body learned to brace, to wait, to earn, to rush.

So when abundance arrives—food, rest, sweetness, enough—the nervous system may not interpret it as “safety.” It may interpret it as a leaving behind of what was lost.

It may also jump to looking toward and fearing, the next deprivation, when there will be emptiness again.

The wheel turns again, and if there are ancestral threads present that speak to you, you may feel it in your relationship with food.

Healing Prompts (write these as a prayer and see what comes) ::

Fill me with Life.

I allow the inevitable return…

abundance, deprivation and abundance,

Where might this cycle challenge you to face its truth? Blessings as you notice.

—Gogo